Hard To Fall Asleep =(

I can't live without music. Usually I will listen to some songs before I go to bed. Around half and hour, I will fall asleep. But recently I listen to my ipod until the battery is low and then died, I still haven't fall asleep. I looked at the time, it was almost 1am. Oh.. It was too bad. Sometimes I really hope that I'm exhausted so that I could sleep soundly and tight.

Maybe I miss my hometown, Sandakan too much. I think about it and then dream about it every single night. Haha.. Now is December, so I just have to wait for two more months, then I can go back to Sandakan. Everytime when I think about it, I will feel so happy. As time goes by, my dream will come true. C:

I miss you all so much-Friends and Family. =D

Food that was eaten during break time

Yesterday my coursemates and I went to Nando's during break time. The service was quite poor. We waited for the food for 20 minutes. Ai yo.. And the food was not delicious. =( When we all back to our class, the class was started. Oh no.. We were late.

This picture was taken in Nando's

Yesterday was Nando's, today is Domino's Pizza. xD We enjoyed eating these two days. Hoho.. We ordered pizza via cell phone. The delivery was quite fast. We just waited for 15 minutes only. Hehe.. When we were waiting for it, we were starving. =(

These was what we had ordered. ^^ After we finished eating, we were so full. We couldn't drink the coke anymore, so we just gave the coke to the canteen. =) Today was the day that my coursemates and I had a great time and had delicious food to eat. Felt so happy. Hehe.. Hmm.. Don't know next time where we will go to eat. xD

Clouds in the sky

Sometimes a beautiful sky becomes ugly in a split of second. Here's the foul weather comes. Sitting on the balcony and staring at the sky, thinking something, then all the clouds are turning grey slowly, but it just don't rain. It just like our life. Suddenly ups and suddenly downs. It changes rapidly. Watching at the dark clouds, those bad memories came to my mind covertly as I didn't realize at first.




But..

Sometimes there'll become fair weather again. Waiting it to change back to the wonderful weather. Rainbow will appear too. Oh.. broken weather. So, whenever we are sad and depressed, just give some time to ourself and other people, wait the great time to approach us. C: It just needs time. The only one thing that will never wait for us.

Trying Hard

I'm trying to concentrate on my studies lately. Writing notes, reading textbooks, surfing net... for several hours on every single day. I attempt to do the best I can. The feeling of tired? I can feel it always. My shoulders are so painful. Sometimes I hope that someone could give me a back massage. Hehe..

Only do the things that I've just mentioned, I'm sure everyone must get bored and feel sleepy. Need to concentrate until your both eyes narrow. Hmm.. So, when I'm studying, I'll sure play some songs (my favourite songs, of course). C: Then only I can study without the feeling of tired. Hehe..

Walk Alone

Donuts from Big Apple

Sometimes go to anywhere accompanied by someone is so great. Can chat, smile with each other or laugh happily. Yesterday I went to Jusco Alpha Angle with my cousin and her boyfriend to buy something. All of us enjoyed ourselves and we felt so happy. =) Before we back home, we ate donuts at Big Apple as the appearance of the donuts attracted us. Hehe.. It's been a long time that I didn't eat donuts. I miss Green Tea donuts so much.

But sometimes go to anywhere alone is great too. Today I went to Suria KLCC alone. The purpose I went there was to buy a gift for my sis as her birthday is coming very soon, shirt for my mom and choc for my aunts and cousins. C: Happy to walk alone and feel good today.

A Moving Film

After the boring class had dismissed, my coursemates and I went to Sushi Station, Sungei Wang to have lunch. I was the first person to finish eating because I was too hungry. Hehe.. Then, we straight away head to GSC, Pavilion. We were going to watch "Tsunami At Haeundae". =)

When we were watching this movie, five of us had different emotion. Two were laughing, another two were crying and one was busy texting and calling on the phone. =.= Haha.. Guess which group I was in. The first, second or third one? Hmm.. I was in the second group. Hehe.. It was a very moving film for me and Joyce. Both of us were imagining that if tsunami really came, then what we should do. When I saw the people were screaming loudly and crying for their family members who died in the disaster, I felt so sad until my tears dropped. We should cherish every moment when we're with our family and friends. =)

Back to KL~

Having holiday in my hometown, Sandakan was so great. It has been a long time that I didn't eat seafood (the fresh one, I mean. Hehe..). This time I returned to Sandakan, I almost ate seafood every day. Haha.. I miss the taste of it. =) As you see the picture above, that is "mi hun soup add prawn and fish meat". I ate it at Bandar Indah. Hehe.. The taste is very nice.

As I long time didn't go back to Sandakan, there are new cafes and a restaurant in Bandar Utama-The Rock Cafe, Tonic and The Friends House. The day before I had to go back to KL, I planned to go to The Friends House with my mom, my aunt and my two cousins. Guess what.. It was full house. Oh no.. I miss the opportunity to try the food and drinks at there. But it's ok. Next time when I'm back again, I'll go there and have a try. =)

Sandakan really reminds me many things, all the memories with my family and buddies. When the day I had to return to KL, I reluctant to leave. Standing on the floor of the airport, I felt sad. =(

Relaxing Time~

21:Bringing Down the House

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It's a relaxing day for me. Finally, the GK parts are completed. Now I just spend most of my time for resting at home. The word "tired" is erased in my mind and a new word is written, that is "rest".

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Staying at home, I just do several things- online, revise my lesson, watch movies which are in my laptop and read "21:Bringing Down the House" (this is a nice non-fiction book and it's all about gambling by using Math). Wow.. Exciting. =D It makes me reluctant to put down the book. Haha..

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There's a movie of this book too. Nice.. b(^-^)d

Pray For You

Here's a special post that I created for you.

I hope everything is okay for you.

I always support you.

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I pray for you.

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We are always be by your side no matter what.

No worries ya.

I will and must pray hard for you.

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Yours affectionately,

Char

Bad Luck =(

I was quite bad luck lately. The "Bad Luck God" just like my shadow, always follows me wherever I go. =(

Firstly, my college new schedule is released and I don't like it at all.
Secondly, the new schedule spoiled my plans.
And thirdly, all the lifts of my place are damaged, so I have to walk up the stairs ( for your information, I live at 11th floor ). T.T
Really really tired.

Besides, today I went to Pavilion via KLCC with Jocelyn, then suddenly the rain came when both of us were on the way to our destination. =.= Even though I had brought my umbrella, it was useless. Get wet also. Maybe it was providence or I was predestined to have bad luck. =(

I hope that the "Bad Luck God" will disappear as fast as possible.

Reminiscing~

Recently I tend be reminiscent. I always think about the remindful time when I was in my hometown, Sandakan, Sabah. I miss everything of it: my home, my family, my friends, my dog, all the restaurants, markets, town, my car and so on.

When I think about my car, it reminds me that I have many nice songs which I didn't bring along with me (I always burnt some CDs and listened to them in my car when I was driving). Hehe.. It's because my mobile phone memory just has 512MB only, plus my 4GB pendrive was at my cousin there. That's why I couldn't save all my favourite songs and brought them with me, unless I bring along all the CDs in my car. Haha.. That's too many, I guess.

Therefore, I decided to download all my favourite songs again. =) But unfortunately, the line at my place is always down. The only way to get all the songs back is ask my buddy to lend me a hand. Hehe.. The line at my buddy's place is pretty good. Everytime I asked for the songs, around 3 or 4 minutes I could have it. Wow.. Really fast, huh? Now I almost got every song that I wanted. =D

Thanks ya, C.

Having Fun...

Green Tea ice-cream

It was a great day for me and six of my friends. 1 in the afternoon, we all met at Green Box Karaoke of Sungei Wang to celebrate my friend, Carrie's birthday. After having fun and sang happily, some of them went home. Just left me, Rachel and Nichole only. At first, I thought that I had to go to Times Square alone to meet my aunt and my cousin. Who knows, three of us wanted to go there coincidentally. Haha.. That's good.

When we reached there, Nichole brought me and Rachel to Kindori. Honestly this was the first time I heard this place. Hehe.. Nichole recommended me and Rachel to eat Green Tea ice-cream (as you can see the picture above). Yummy... It's really delicious! We all like it so much. =D Nichole is a fan of Kindori. I think I'll also be a fan of it sooner or later. Hehe..

Everyone who wants to try the ice-cream at Kindori, you can go to 3rd floor, Berjaya Times Square. It's just situated in front of GSC cinema. I would also recommend Green Tea ice-cream to everybody as Nichole did. =)

Affection

When you have an affection towards someone, you don't care anything. No matter the age, health, appearance, height, weight, bad habits, wealth and so on...

Suddenly I think of a song called 'Why Does She Stay' sung by Ne-Yo ( he's one of my favourite singers. Hehe..) Yup, it's true. When you really got a crush on somebody, you'll always take good care of the person, make sure everything is okay for the person, concern about the person and considering the person before yourself.

"Like" and "Love" are different.

If you like a person, that means you like to be with that person, always like see that person around you. That's "Like".

If you love a person, that means you love the person's everything, including the bad habits and weaknesses of the person (plus all the "Like" features). That's "Love".

You can live without the one that you like, but you can't live without the one that you love.

For those who want to see the lyric of 'Why Does She Stay', just click http://www.lyricmania.com/ne+yo-why+does+she+stay-lyric.html

My Class

This is the first time that I felt so sleepy in my class. There are two reasons. The first reason is that I had to retake for the test in the morning as I was absent that day. Plus I just had one day to study for it. Gotta swallow my book! =.= The second is that I had class in the afternoon on the same day. This really made me feel tired and I had no mood to study.

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The worst thing is my coursemates and I were hypnotized by our lecturer. My class was from 2pm to 5pm, but when it was 3pm, we all really couldn't concentrate anymore. I looked at my friend who sits beside me. My friend's eyes were full of tears, not because of the lecturer was telling a moving story, is because she kept yawning. Haha.. At that time, there was only one word in our mind-SLEEP. I think I just get 30% of what lecturer was teaching. Haha..

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I have to find someday to concentrate on my studies, can't always have fun with my friends ( my lecturer always calls my coursemates and I 'Naughty' ). =D

Dreams...

Last night, I had dreamt of several dreams in the meantime. If I'm not mistaken, there were 3 dreams. Wow.. Something wrong with me. I couldn't remember all well, but I could see many pictures were passing by in front of me. The one which I still remember is I have two brothers in my dream. One is my elder brother and one is my younger brother. This is not a part that surprise me.

The unexpected part which surprised me is my two brothers are foreigners. My elder brother has brown hair, whereas my little brother has yellow hair. My little brother is very cute. Haha.. I think he is three or four years old. I remember him clearly because I was holding his warm hand. Hehe.. This was a nice and yet weird dream I had. I like it. =)

Recently I have many dreams during my sleeping time and I don't know why. And this is one of my dream which I remember. I'm wondering what is the next dream that I will have tonight. Hehe.. Hope that is a nice dream too.

Let Me Live

Let me cut my own hair.
If it looks horrible,
let me learn not to touch scissors and that hair grows back.

Let me spend my money.
If the shirt's too little and the store doesn't give refunds,
let me learn to save my cash.

Let me kiss a boy.
If he thinks it's just a fling and I get my heart broken,
let me learn that some boys are just that way.

Let me flunk my test.
If I fail the class and miss the honour roll list,
let me learn to study more.

Let me miss the shot.
If my team loses and I'm on the bench,
let me learn to concentrate on the basket.

Let me go out past curfew.
If I get grounded and miss that big party this weekend,
let me learn to follow the rules.

But most important, let me live.
If I learn a lesson,
you've done your part.



Jennifer Danley [Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul lV]

Save You

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there’s so many things that I want you to know

I won’t give up til it’s over

If it takes you forever

I want you to know

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When I hear your voice it’s drowning in the whispers

You’re just skin and bones

There’s nothing left to take

And no matter what I do

I can’t make you feel better

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If you fall, stumble down

I’ll pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

I’ll give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won’t give up

Cause I’ll be waiting if you fall

You know I’ll be there for you

sung by Simple Plan

Colours

I'm sure everyone has your own favourite colours. But do you know that every colour has different meaning? Let's see below...

Brown

People who love brown, their outer looks seem like they're not affected by any situation, things or people easily, but actually they are kind and helpful. Besides, they love jobs which are related to environment.

Purple

People who love purple has their own styles, full of artistic, have a great sixth sense and don't like social intercourse.

Orange

People who love orange don't think themselves are active, don't like to surrender. When they're happy, sad or angry, their emotion will appear on their faces. They're always alert and practise what they preach.

Light green

People who love light green seldom listen to other people's suggestions and always believe in themselves.

Green

People who love green have good manner, like peaceful, honest, like to make friends with others, but they don't trust people easily, have high curiosity as well.

Yellow

People who love yellow have high curiosity, like to do research, ambitious and always suggest great ideas which differ from other people.

Blue

People who love blue are full of wisdom and emotion, always serious and foresight. But you love light blue, you're artistic, always express yourselves. On the other hand, you love dark blue, you like the jobs which are required analysis and make decision.

Pink

People who love pink usually grow up from a wealthy family, polite, hope to have a perfect wedding and family. When a girl is in love, she'll love pink so much.

Red

People who love red, they are active, charming and always tell something straight from their hearts.

Grey

People who love grey, their inference is always precise, like to encourage people, know the method of how to deal with stress, always hope to have a peaceful life.

White

People who love white are ambitious, always set a target to achieve it, perfectionist.

Black

People who love black always mind how others think of them, hope they look elegant and mysterious.

Feel Good ^^

After I get better from my desperate sickness, finally I feel energetic and healthy. =) Guess what sickness I had. I had fever and sore thoart. =( This illness made me feel so dizzy and felt like dying. At first, I thought that I have H1N1. O.O Haha.. Silly me.

11 in the morning, I went to the nearest clinic to consult a doctor. I really scared that I have that suffering sickness. When I reached there, I saw many patients were sitting on the chairs, waiting their turns to see the doctor. The clinic was full of patients. WOW..! Really a lot of people fall sick recently. You know what. I waited at the clinic for ONE HOUR, then only is my turn. =.= In the meantime, I really felt like dying.

The doctor said that I had 'upper respiratory tract inflammation'. It's a long name of my sickness. Haha.. My thoart became red and that's the reason why I could feel the pain of my thoart. =( Only two types of food I could eat- white bread and porridge. Pity me.. This sickness made me become slim a bit. =P Besides, my jeans looks quite loose when I am wearing it. Oh gosh..! My housemates also fell sick.

Thus, everyone must take good care of yourselves. Drink plenty of water and avoid eating fast food (although fast food is my favourite food. Hehe..).

Get Hurt =(

As I woke up in the morning, I realized the wound of my right hand. It reminds me that when I was cooking porridge while stirring it and suddenly I stirred it with a great force carelessly. One drop of the hot porridge fell onto my hand and hurt my hand greatly. Ouch! >< I felt so painful. It just like burning my hand. T.T I think I should be careful next time. Erm... No, is all the time. Hehe..

A Fantastic Movie

As I didn't realize the time, it's already 11.30pm. I have just finished watching a fantastic and exciting movie called "Coraline". For me, it's really a wonderful, nice and great movie. I like this movie so much. Haha.. Gotta watch it over and over again. The film has a great storyline plus it has a happy ending. This is the best movie that I have ever watched. I recommend everyone to watch it. I bet you all won't feel regret after watching this movie. Enjoy it. You'll feel like accessing another world which you never imagined before. For those who likes fantasy, don't miss it. You'll like this film so much just like me. Hehe..

Is life meaningful or meaningless?

Have you ever wondered why we are living in the world? We do the same daily activities everyday. Everyday life is the same. Sometimes you feel bored, don't you? Is life meaningless? I always ponder about this matter. But what can make our lives become meaningful?

If you have everything that you want;
If you have a large amount of money;
If you can buy or get whatever you desire;
If you are so brainy;
If you have a good-looking appearance;
If you are healthy;
If you have all of the above.
Then you don't have to worry about anything.

But do you realize that we always think of ourselves first before anyone else? When we have what we want in our lives, we feel happy and satisfied. What if we lose everything in a split of second? Will you brace yourselves up to move on or commit suicide? Most of the time we have left something behind which are very important for all of us. Guess what are they. The answers are Friendship, Love and Care. We need them to survive. Without them, our lives are really meaningless. We only spend a lot of time in our lives on one particular thing, but later a heartless hurricane destroys everything that we own; all that remains is friendship, love, care and the hands of those who are capable of making us smile. Cherish the friendship, love and care that you have and share to others as well. Then only you'll find Happiness. =)

A Friend Of Mine

Hi, everyone! Nice to meet you all. I'm Charmen. I have just signed up blogspot.com and this is my first blog. Erm..honestly, I have no idea what to write about. As a little time elapsed, something comes to my mind suddenly. Let's talk about something that had been told by a friend of mine.

[June 27, 2009]

Today, I went to college for revising the lesson with my several coursemates as next Monday we'll have a small test. For your information, I don't even have a best friend in my college. I'm not friendly. But one of my coursemate who is very friendly (too friendly, I guess) always likes to approach me, smile with me and break a jest. Whenever I see her, I'll smile back to her too. She always smiles. This makes me think that she's optimistic and never cries. Until today, then only I realize that she had a depressing experience during her secondary school life. When everybody went to the next class for joining the alternate class, just left me and her in the completely silent and chilly room. I translated the difficult English words to her using Chinese and I told her what's the meaning of each sentence on the textbook. In the meantime, she told me that I'm intelligent. I replied her that I'm not that clever because I have a lot of weaknesses. I told her that I want to change myself to become better, but she said to me that I don't need to change myself because everybody has their own weaknesses, not only me, nobody is perfect. She said that I'm so silly because I always keep on reminding myself to change myself. I bought some self-help books to improve myself. I even typed a note in my cell phone to remind me and the title of it is 'Improve Myself '. I just want to make myself become better so that I'll feel OK. At least I won't hate myself of having the weaknesses. Then, she told me that she had always been bullied by her friends during secondary school. She felt so sad, but she couldn't do anything and she just told herself to become happy, everything will be fine. At last, she told me that just be yourself is enough. I was relieved to hear her words. Even though she asked me don't change, I'll still try to change myself. Not in a forced way, but in a willing way. I hope that one day I really will change to be a better person. Lastly, I really thanks my friend for strengthening my spirit. I don't feel so sad of having my own weaknesses anymore.