[June 27, 2009]
Today, I went to college for revising the lesson with my several coursemates as next Monday we'll have a small test. For your information, I don't even have a best friend in my college. I'm not friendly. But one of my coursemate who is very friendly (too friendly, I guess) always likes to approach me, smile with me and break a jest. Whenever I see her, I'll smile back to her too. She always smiles. This makes me think that she's optimistic and never cries. Until today, then only I realize that she had a depressing experience during her secondary school life. When everybody went to the next class for joining the alternate class, just left me and her in the completely silent and chilly room. I translated the difficult English words to her using Chinese and I told her what's the meaning of each sentence on the textbook. In the meantime, she told me that I'm intelligent. I replied her that I'm not that clever because I have a lot of weaknesses. I told her that I want to change myself to become better, but she said to me that I don't need to change myself because everybody has their own weaknesses, not only me, nobody is perfect. She said that I'm so silly because I always keep on reminding myself to change myself. I bought some self-help books to improve myself. I even typed a note in my cell phone to remind me and the title of it is 'Improve Myself '. I just want to make myself become better so that I'll feel OK. At least I won't hate myself of having the weaknesses. Then, she told me that she had always been bullied by her friends during secondary school. She felt so sad, but she couldn't do anything and she just told herself to become happy, everything will be fine. At last, she told me that just be yourself is enough. I was relieved to hear her words. Even though she asked me don't change, I'll still try to change myself. Not in a forced way, but in a willing way. I hope that one day I really will change to be a better person. Lastly, I really thanks my friend for strengthening my spirit. I don't feel so sad of having my own weaknesses anymore.
